SELF PORTRAIT SERIES / LETTING GO...
Journal Entry Vol. 2 #21
Wednesday, July 20th, 2016 12:41pm
University of Montana Soccer Field, Missoula, MT
When I start over and hand everything over to God or whatever it is, it is so scary and my immediate reaction is to control the situation. I always know what the right answer is when I tap into my inner compass. It boils down to saving my ass and face at the same time. I can’t. I have to pick one. No matter what it is, it’s frightening. The big things always are... And so is the small stuff.
It’s about being honest with myself and stepping outside of my comfort zone. I like to stick with the things that are comfortable and easy. Eventually - after holding on for dear life - I let go, and I find the courage to take one small step. Then the rest follows. When that happens it feels good, and I get motivated to completely let go. All of this happens when I listen to my gut. It’s always the right voice. Always. These steps lead to pure bliss, moments of serenity, complete happiness and excitement for the future.
After all is said and done, this cycle repeats it's self again. That is life and it is beautiful.